Songs

So, like most work days I was in my car for 100's of miles today... I finialy changed the CD and am so glad I did...some wonderful, godly words of wisdom from my friend (ha ha I wish) Ginny
Be happy, stay positive....
Owens:
" no Lord, you got the wrong guy. Besides I am weak don't you want someone strong... they wont believe you spoke to me"
Not your problem God replied... and the rest is history
Cause there is a bigger picture you can't see;
you don't have to change the world just trust in me;
cause I am your creator and I am working out my plan and
through you I will show them I am


When the winds of change try to blow me over
and the shadows of confusion hide the truth
I will hope in the one that lives forever
I will run to you
I will run to you

Reading

Anyone that knows me, knows I am not a fan of reading...
unlike my sister who can read 10000 pages per minute it takes me 5 hours to read 60 pages. Now the difference between my sister and I is that my sister has been reading since... well lets just say I don't remember a time when she was without a book, and I have the disability of ADHD causing high distractions whereas my sister could read during a tornado and not be phased (being creative/crafty and the love and ability to read like no other are two things my sister was blessed with that I missed out on!) *but that is okay, I make up for it -love ya Rach-* :)

All of this to say that I picked up a book again today... it is "Blue like Jazz" by Donald Miller. I have begun this book many times, and have probably read the first few chapters 4 times. The beautiful thing about this book is how laid back and yet deep it is.

I guess I am saying... I am reading, slowly but surely and highly recommend this book!
In a chapter called "Faith; penguin sex" Donald is asked where his faith comes from; he refers to penguins and ultimately states that the mother penguin leaves the egg with the father for a month at a time to go fishing... the DAY she returns to the father and the egg; the egg hatches... how does the mother know to return? She just knows... He says "I don't think you can explain how Christian faith works, it is a mystery. And I love this about Christian spirituality. It cannot be explained, and yet it is beautiful and true. It is something you feel, and it comes from the soul"

Frustration

Frustration is frustrating (Ha ha!)

When you are so frustrated that you don't know if you want to talk about it or be left alone...
Frustrated when you know you should not be frustrated (with or without the PMS factor)...
Frustrated that you become agitated at the LITTLEST thing...

You pray for a calm spirit, or for your frustration/anger to be quieted...
You confide in friends...
You take a bath, keep to yourself...
Try distracting yourself with a comedy, a romance, video games (yes I love my video games!)...

Nothing seems to work.

Frustration can be so frustrating!

Contentment and Peace

I was recently told that finding contentment is right up there with acquiring patience. When I heard that I thought "aw crap!!". Patience has never been a strong quality of mine.

So the question is this, is peace, contentment and patience all the same thing? Can you have one without the other? Or can you be content in not acquiring patience? Can you be patient and lack contentment?

Two of my favorite verses say "The three greatest things in life are faith, hope and love. But the Greatest of these is Love" 1 Corinthains 13:13
And...
"Let love and faithfulness never leave you; Bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart." Proverbs 3:3

Being a person is full of love and compassion makes me wonder if the peace, contentment and patience follows love... or did I just pass those qualities and have to back track (like most of my life!) .

I am not complaining by any means, I love having the gift of love (ha ha!), and I believe that because of the love I have brings me that much closer to knowing and understanding God's desire to be with us...

Maybe the trick is to love unconditionally, be content in the constant challenges and growth God allows/provides, and find peace in knowing that God's plan will be even if you are stubborn and take back bumpy, two lane full of semi trucks and road construction ways (is it obviously that I spend most of my time in the car?!)

*side note, isn't it interesting/amazing that we are to have faith like a child, and a child's forgiveness, trust, and love for parents/siblings are undeniable?!

So I did it!

So I did it, I decided to become addicted to yet one more thing on the internet and add a "blogger" so everyone can stay updated with the craziness of my life and my thoughts!

Along with adding to my addictions of the web (I blame my daddy for this!) I also made a leap of faith in resigning from my position as Family Counselor at Youth Villages. This decision took a lot of prayer, guidance from the parents (which I must admit despite what I was told when I was younger I never thought I would appreciate their wisdom as much as I do now) and GUTS! If anyone knows me even just a little bit you know that I have ALWAYS fought for my independence the act of quiting my job and moving in with my parents was not an easy task.

However, despite this difficult decision I am comforted in the knowledge that I have the unconditional love and support of my family. In the field I work in I am constantly amazed at how difficult it can be for families to continuously love and support each other. Yes for those questioning or in shock I do realize I have grown from my "younger rebellious" years! All of this to say not only have I decided to blog my life and thoughts, I have... yet AGAIN entrusted my future in God's plan and realized how blessed I am to have a family that not only has great wisdom but serve and love the Lord.